this is a page dedicated to my lovely wife girlfriend.

i have many words for you, many that i can't fit into one single message. so i spill them all out in a form of code, just for you.

all i do is look forward to seeing you. everytime i wake up for the day, my thoughts instantly contain you as if its on autopilot. to be honest, ive never felt that way towards anyone. it gives me conflicting feelings between romanticism and platonicism, making my heart feel heavy in my chest. when i do feel those feelings, especially romantic, it feels like its eating me from the inside out, or a cupids arrow has struck me in the chest. its an intense feeling sometimes, but thats okay.

i have days where i go back to the memories we shared thus far. replaying every moment and scene in my head, smiling to myself as i take apart those memories and think about the things you said or did that made me laugh, smile, and grow my overbearing love for you.

you genuinely have an amazing heart, from how much you make me feel better despite the things i go through at times. and thats what i want to do in return, i want you to feel your most best when we are together. i always want to try to make every day count, to where i set things aside only for us, even if i don't have to.

i get inspired by you more than i can admit, to most of my creations always comes from you. i would be lying if i said you weren't my muse, especially when it comes to my hand in drawing. you're the person that keeps my hand on a pen, creating illustrations or doodles when most of the time i can't think of an idea at all. its something that amazing me when i think about it.

and when i create, its under how creative you are. it makes me admire how much time and love you put into your little things, the detailed personalities of your original characters, stories, etc. i sometimes envy your talent in that.

all i want to do is see you, ive been having that thought in my mind for as long as i met you. even if i do "see you", i want to keep seeing you, everyday. and thats because i love you, i love you so much to where i think its too much. but there is never a too much when it comes to you.

04.02.22 ♡